America Nineleven

For all of us, especially the bereaved:

Thumbnail Affirmations
fast and easy 'first-response' helpers. They work.

Hang in! It Gets Better!

Get Good Help...for you and yours...your situation is special. Respect that.

Respect a special need for basic good care ...healthy food, lite exercise, extra rest...people are amazing...healing happens promptly and well,and better when you allow yourself to cherish yourself a little bit !

Don't be afraid of your own "crazies", they are typical, normal, and usually pass quickly... if they last or exceed the law, definitely tell your doctor...respect it !

Its OK to laugh and play and hug more...whatever is normal for you right now will make it better for all!

Don't be afraid of intelligent changes that help...It does get better, love restores itself, and, after "walking in the shadows" of acute sudden grief, the psyche often heals as dramatically, and the sun comes up very specially one morning!

Support our President and all who are fighting at this moment, in boardrooms and battlefields for our Freedom and Justice, Resolution and Redemption !

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Timetable Nineleven, per the
Independent Commission

Update from Nineleven Commission ~ per The New York Times June 18, 2004

THE TIMETABLE
To the Minute, Panel Paints a Grim Portrait of Day's Terror By ERIC SCHMITT and ERIC LICHTBLAU

WASHINGTON, June 17 — At
9:36 a.m. on Sept. 11, halfway through America's most calamitous morning, military air defense officials learned that American Airlines Flight 77 was just six miles — and little more than a minute — away from the White House.

An air defense commander in upstate New York ordered three Air Force fighter jets to intercept the third airliner hijacked that morning. But he soon discovered that the Virginia-based fighters were not heading north toward Baltimore as instructed, but streaking east over the Atlantic Ocean. "I don't care how many windows you break," the commander barked, ordering the jets to turn around and "crank it up" to the White House.

At that moment in Washington, Secret Service agents were hustling Vice President Dick Cheney to a secure underground White House bunker. In Sarasota, Fla., President Bush's motorcade was speeding away from an elementary school, initially headed in the wrong direction, to rush the president to the airport — and up into the sky, to safety.

The nation has relived that morning countless times since Sept. 11, 2001, but never with the harrowing detail and minute-by-minute drama of the staff report released Thursday by the independent commission investigating the attacks.

The 29-page report recounts a frenetic 149 minutes unlike anything ever faced by the nation's aviation and military defenses. And it details moments both of unflinching calm, like actions by the air traffic controllers who managed to orchestrate the landings of all 4,500 flights aloft, and of maddening miscommunications, mangled coordination and broken chains of command.

The account shows civilian air traffic controllers and regional air defense officers improvising a defense for a disaster for which they had never trained, and senior administration officials struggling to sift certainty from sheer confusion, at times learning more from television news than from classified intelligence reports.

Throughout the morning, the Federal Aviation Administration had virtually no contact at the national command level with the North American Aerospace Defense Command, or Norad, which is responsible for defending the nation's airspace. And the Secret Service resorted to coordinating its own shoot-down policy regarding hijacked airliners with a National Guard general at Andrews Air Force Base in Maryland, outside the normal protocol.

"There were a lot of people who should have been in the loop who weren't in the loop," Thomas H. Kean, the commission's chairman and a former Republican governor of New Jersey, said after Thursday's hearing. "There were a lot of things that should have been done that weren't done."

The late-summer day began like any other at Logan Airport in Boston, as American Airlines Flight 11, bound for Los Angeles with 81 passengers and 24,000 gallons of jet fuel, began its takeoff roll at
8 a.m.

The last moment of normalcy came at
8:13 a.m., when air traffic control instructed the plane to turn to the right, according to the commission report. The pilot quickly acknowledged the transmission.

Just 16 seconds later, when the controller directed the plane to climb higher, the line went dead. After failing to make contact using emergency frequencies, the controller told supervisors that "he thought something was seriously wrong," the report said.

Confirmation came at
8:24. The plane had already changed its route when a chilling voice - believed to be that of Mohamed Atta, the lead plotter - was heard to say: "We have some planes. Just stay quiet and you'll be O.K. We are returning to the airport."

Aviation officials in Boston began sending word to supervisors in Herndon, Va., that Flight 11 had been hijacked and was heading to New York City. But it was not until
8:37 that Norad officials in Rome, N.Y., responsible for defending the Northeast, were notified.

"We need someone to scramble some F-16's or something up there," an F.A.A. manager said.

"Is this real-world or exercise?" a military official asked.

"No, this is not an exercise, not a test," came the response.

Two F-15 jets at Otis Air Force Base, some 150 miles from New York City, were airborne at
8:53. But Flight 11 had crashed into the north tower of the World Trade Center six minutes earlier.

Meanwhile, United Airlines Flight 175, which had left Boston at
8:14 for Los Angeles with 65 passengers, had already begun acting erratically. No one on the ground noticed, however, because the controller responsible for that flight was also handling the hijacked Flight 11.

At
8:48, an F.A.A. manager in New York, unaware that Flight 11 had already crashed, reported that an attendant on that flight had been stabbed.

By about 9 a.m., aviation officials had realized that a second hijacked plane was heading for New York City. "Heads up, man, it looks like another one coming in," the F.A.A. reported.

Moments later, United Flight 175 crashed into the south tower. Military air defenders were only just getting word at that time that a second plane had been hijacked. In a vexing pattern seen throughout the morning, the aviation defense system was steps behind the hijackers and unable to catch up.

In Sarasota, meanwhile, President Bush was visiting some second graders at
9:05 when Andrew H. Card Jr., his chief of staff, whispered to him that a plane had hit the second tower.

The president had been told minutes earlier about the first crash, but Condoleeza Rice, the national security adviser, who was on the trip, said initially that the plane that crashed was a twin-engine aircraft. When the second plane hit, however, White House aides said they knew it was no accident.

In the classroom, reporters' pagers and phones started ringing. President Bush showed little emotion, telling the commission later that "his instinct was to project calm, not to have the country see an excited reaction at a moment of crisis," the report said.

He remained in the classroom another few minutes. Shortly before
9:15, he returned to a holding room, where he was briefed by staff members, watched television coverage and called Mr. Cheney and others. Mr. Bush prepared to return to Washington - a decision that worried aides would later persuade him to reverse.

No one in the White House traveling party had any indication by then that any other planes had been hijacked, the report said.

But by
9:21, aviation officials had realized that a third plane - American Airlines Flight 77, which had left Dulles International Airport outside Washington at 8:20 - was missing. Controllers lost sight of it near Indianapolis and did not realize it had turned back toward Washington.

Minutes later, just as the president was preparing to leave the school, the F.A.A. cleared the airspace over Manhattan and the fighter planes patrolled the skies above the city.

But the threat then was not in New York City, where the twin towers were in flames; it was at the Pentagon, where Flight 77 was headed. The plane traveled undetected toward Washington for 36 minutes, the report found.

At
9:32, aviation officials in Washington finally spotted what turned out to be the missing plane. The F.A.A. contacted the Secret Service, and controllers at Reagan National Airport sent an unarmed National Guard C-130H cargo plane to follow the suspicious jetliner. Once again, it was too late. At
9:38, the National Guard pilot reported to the Washington tower that it"looks like that aircraft crashed into the Pentagon, sir."

Military officials did not even know about the frantic search for Flight 77, the report said. Instead, the military was searching for a ghost plane headed to Washington. The F.A.A. had erroneously reported that American Flight 11 - the plane that had crashed into the north tower of the trade center more than half an hour earlier - was still airborne and heading for Washington, the report said.

By
9:37, the Pentagon had opened a high-level teleconference, called the Air Threat Conference call, which would last more than eight hours. Mr. Bush, Mr. Cheney, Defense Secretary Donald H. Rumsfeld and other senior officials from across the government would participate at various times during the day.

Conspicuously absent for the crucial first 40 minutes of the call was a representative from the Federal Aviation Administration, which controls all civilian air traffic. The official who ultimately joined the call at
10:17 had no familiarity with hijackings, no access to senior agency decision makers, and none of the information available to senior F.A.A. officials by that time, the report said.

Even as officials were meeting in Washington to grapple with the situation, three F-16 fighters from Langley Air Force Base in Virginia were racing toward Washington, and the final hijacking was playing out aboard United Airlines Flight 93.

Just minutes before the crash at the Pentagon, Flight 93, flying from Newark to San Francisco, went off course near Cleveland. An air traffic controller there and pilots of other aircraft flying nearby heard over a radio transmission what sounded like screams and a struggle.

By
9:38, controllers in Cleveland had moved several aircraft out of the way of Flight 93, and soon after that the hijacked flight reversed course over Ohio and began heading toward Washington.

Four minutes later, a top F.A.A. operations manager, Ben Sliney, ordered all F.A.A. sites to direct all airborne aircraft to land at the nearest airport, the first such action in the nation's history. About 4,500 aircraft soon landed without incident.

Meantime, aboard Flight 93, passengers had gotten cellphone calls about the other hijackings, and some of them rushed the cockpit. At about
10:03, Flight 93 crashed in a field near Shanksville, Pa., 125 miles from Washington.

Despite the numerous discussions among F.A.A. officials about Flight 93, no one at the agency's headquarters ever requested military help. Just before
10 a.m., officials in Washington were ordering additional steps. Stephen Hadley, Mr. Bush's deputy national security adviser, requested that the Pentagon provide fighter escorts for Air Force One, which was just leaving Florida; combat air patrols over Washington; and help carrying out the continuity of government procedures, the doomsday rules under which cabinet members and Congressional leaders are whisked to undisclosed locations in a national emergency.

By
10:10, the F-16's that had been over the Atlantic arrived in Washington, but were told by the Norad commander in Rome, N.Y., that they were not cleared to fire on any hijacked airliner threatening Washington.

But at the same time, Mr. Cheney, still in the White House bunker, ordered the shooting down of any threatening airliner. Before the order went out, Joshua Bolten, Mr. Bush's deputy chief of staff, suggested that Mr. Cheney call Mr. Bush again to confirm the order.

Neither Mr. Bolten, nor I. Lewis Libby, Mr. Cheney's chief of staff, nor Lynne V. Cheney, his wife, all of whom were in the bunker, said they recalled a phone call minutes earlier that Mr. Cheney and Mr. Bush said they had had authorizing the drastic action. At
10:20 a.m., officials on Air Force One confirmed Mr. Bush's authorization of a shootdown order.

At
10:31, the order was relayed to air defense commanders over a military chat log, but military officials down the chain of command expressed confusion about the directive and never passed it on to the pilots circling Washington and New York.

Even as the pilots were waiting for instructions, Brig. Gen. David F. Wherley Jr., commander of the District of Columbia Air National Guard's 113th Wing, heard secondhand reports that the Secret Service wanted fighters airborne over the capital, and offered his fighter jets based at Andrews Air Force Base, the report said.

Based on Mr. Cheney's authority, the first fighters were airborne at
10:38 a.m. Four minutes later, General Wherley issued orders that the pilots from Andrews were operating "weapons free," meaning the decision to shoot down any hijacked planes rested with the lead pilot.

Copyright 2004 The New York Times Company

DIARY ~ ONE WEEK IN AMERICA ~
Begins on Tuesday September 11, 2001 and ends on Monday September 17, 2001
by Ellen Smith Fagan of Rockville, Connecticut

God bless you, President Bush, and all leaders in your work for us!
May this experience motivate us to action so that such loss may never strike us again!

FIRSTNOTES

Tuesday September 11, 2001:

It is after five at my sunny corner apartment. The latest news declared that the hundreds of rescue workers at the devastated World Trade Center will probably not find many more survivors. The television reporter fought back a sickening facial expression, at the meaning of the words he spoke. It was different in our town Center today, no matter how people strove to keep it normal.

Most of us found our way to church, and tonight,many of my friends and neighbors lit lunaria, and other candles, and sat and prayed along the sidewalks in front of their homes. We love you, America ! ...and all our fellow-Americans !

Back home later, I am feeling like a character in a World War II movie, stepping out into my little garden, gazing at the heavens and thinking about the Air Force protections overhead. So profound, to feel so personally, US Air Force and Military as Guardian Angels lulling me to sleep! I am a romantic, and started to complain to myself that I stood in the garden on such a night, alone...then remembered the ground-zero bereaved, who were confronting that awful first night alone, and so many of them, and "stopped in my tracks" on the subject, and prayed.

Wednesday September 12, 2001:

Here in this Hartford, Connecticut suburb, we all seemed to be praying for those affected by the attack, and this morning the state was taken off the list of potential attack sites, at least for now. I don't think I will ever be able to comprehend the import of what the reporter said... the amount of response work achieved in twenty-four hours! How frustrating to be "benched" due to injury from my Red Cross Response Work, after clearances for work in two wars! Never did I wish to help more...all I can do is pray, sing a sincere "God Bless America", and stay alert in my neighborhood, should anyone have a special need. ARC rules would not support me for interfering in any way, and I will surely follow up on the President's message that we go about business as usual. Our church collected thousands in one passing of the basket, and survival items by the truckload...all of them taken immediately to Ground Zero, in an instant combined effort of Church and State. One Redcross friend told me that ARC threw away the paperwork, and simply drove up and down the street, passing out food, blankets...whatever... to relieve both victims and workers. ARC like most charitable .orgs, is very careful to document its gifts and disbursements...they must be accounted for to their funding sources, and surely will have fun later, trying to make the tally, but no one has criticized them, so far.

Thursday September 13, 2001:

Tuesday's morning coffee was much more than we wanted, the never-to-be-forgotten sight of the World Trade Center exploding and imploding, before our sleepy eyes. The Pentagon and Pennsylvania attacks followed, and closings of other potential targets, including the Golden Gate Bridge in San Francisco It is in view from my son's work and living space with the Chronicle's website, till project expansion made it necessary to move the offices a few blocks away for safety.

I am cool where he is concerned, he is over thirty and we all like to do brave work in our family, and so I allowed myself only a moment's MOST sincere wish to have my two grown children and 75-year-old Mother at my side "RIGHT NOW !", and put my rosary into my pocket for intermittent prayers for my son's safety and competence in his work through this crisis. I sent him a quick e-mail , saying "I'm fine! Watch youself and do a great job!" He kept his promise for such contingencies, and e-mailed me that he was fine, and out of range of danger, at the new offices, and was, indeed, very busy with crisis news duties.

My "maybe a son-in-law" was with my daughter, here in Connecticut, an hour away by car....and if she doesn't marry him, I will...knowing he was near her, gave me surprising peace of mind concerning her safety. Last night, ash from Lower Manhattan was viewable from their place near New Haven. As for Mother, the most-loved "Albina Who Polkas" complied, and self-contained with her seniors group an hour's drive from here,in another direction, and then right out to help with her American Cancer Society Volunteer crew. Our hospitals here have been busy helping with casualties from Ground Zero , and the rest of us determined not to add to the stress, working harder than usual to stay into our normal routine. With a neighborhood of delicate persons to think about, I did not dare try to put comments in writing that first day, for fear of "fanning the flames" among my neighbors. All of us got conscious in the "group unconscious", instinctively "keeping to our stations" and doing the right thing without argument or incident, when the mandate was to support the general law and order, and nurse one another along, till it was possible to regain calm. Some are too elderly or sedentary, but all the able-bodied of my neighbors normally stay active at some form of "pitch in and help out" ...so they, too, got outward bound fairly soon.
My present neighborhood consists primarily of seniors but there are a few recuperating disabled,like myself, in the neighborhood. While getting my life back to normal, I have loved my special residence, full of "left-handed blessings"! It has been an opportunity to study the concepts that may effect my own aging, and I have tried to pay attention and learn. The WWII spirit and duty they recalled from those days ! I will remember !
And today, one day later, there was sorrow and futility and a sickening "morning after" mood. A national hangover from a force-feeding of "white lightning" of the third kind! But among my seniors there was fine spirit, compliance to protective measures, and a sort of valiance. Many of them, men and women, were intrepid heroes in youth, and would still prefer to be among the helping and rescue crews, and most of them cannot afford to contribute much money as a substitute for work, the easiest healer for futility feelings caused by age.

I can't be a blood donor yet, due to menopausal iron level fluctuations, but can urge others to do so...ARC practices in it are admirable. This day has refreshed my awareness, most fortunately, in this case.

Friday September 14, 2001:

I am waiting for a friend to chauffeur me to find some set-up supplies for our arts and crafts show in the park this weekend - the show must go on - and am working at my notes here and paintings. The show will go on, if in a lower key than usual, and is expected to cheer the public a little bit...with the homey cheery things on the Town Green, a few feet away from the Official Town Flag at Half-mast. The vintage car group scheduled for weeks to show its shiny American examples of pride and joy, is very patriotic, and will certainly help support us with demonstrations of the right stuff. I am glad my ride was delayed, it gives me time to get this down on record...

With all my heart I pray that Osama Bin Laden, the apparent mastermind behind this horror, will surrender, or be brought to justice. Afghanistan's people are like all people...Mothers and Fathers and babies and lovers, trying to make a happy life. If war is necessary, as usual, these ordinary people, innocents in many cases, will be the victims... and "two wrongs do not make a right". If Bin Laden is not a liar as well as a murderer...if he meant his words about wishing to help his countrymen to achieve world parity, then his best chance at longterm success is to surrender. He cannot help himself...his fate is the worst, no matter what...and that of his active followers. But we have a history of compassion and support for the innocent in these scenarios, and Bin Laden will have his wish and be a "martyr for his cause", as he described himself........certainly not the kind we admire, though. I wrestle with myself, here...even the basic logics in this have painful contradictions...but I am leaving this writing just as it is...since my stumbling tells the truth of things at this writing, better than a verbal waltz. I loved Haim Ginnot, child psychologist, when my own were little: "we reward good behavior, we give bad behavior loving, objective, timely correction, and as little "attention" as possible, since mommy-attention pleases the child, and its ability to discriminate between the kinds of attention may be limited or clouded. How can we wish to co-operate in a "catch-22" with a power that so recently abused us so profoundly? Someone in authority said in a miserable, dominant voice: "we won't catch bin laden"...meaning that the shock of his actions would result, at first in our excluding him from the human community...from fear and revulsion. Ok for now, but we have the means and so are not excused from apprehending him before too long.

Saturday September 15, 2001:

The Arts and Crafts show was a big success...anyway! Between the mood created by our shocking national experience, and my physical "underpar" from a dental surgery a week before, although all the preparations were made, and my fees paid and my spot chalked out on the park, I was not sure I would be able to "do the day". So I walked down without my things for the show a little early. Everyone and everything was perfect...."positively exemplary!" I was so proud of my town! The crafts groups made it their mission to make mild patriotic comment of a positive and energizing nature, gently touching all concepts involved, without reservation. The vintage cars made the day! Many of them bore flags, patriotic signs of support for all involved, and the faces on the people were resolute..."of one mind!" And yet the atmosphere was as pleasant as the breezy sunny day we won for the event. I ran home, got my things, and stayed busy and satisfied all day. And asleep twenty minutes after returning home, and glad I'd gone. God Bless America! We work to earn your blessing in return!

Sunday September 16, 2001:

A Litany For Healing Help For The Bereaved

Many years ago, I lost my most loved one to sudden death...I truly did not believe, for a horrible moment, that I could live without him, I wanted to be with him...I am a happy heart and loving and very positive soul....that moment was the first time I experienced a wish against life..it was terrifying ! .I got help, and could afford good help, and did just fine , for the important thngs, in just a few weeks... the dirty monster, time, still rules when it comes to closure and experience of personal happiness again...like the pebble on a pond...the healing did in ripples. But the day came when the sun shone again and I sailed on smooth waters.

The memory of my shock and pain of loss returned ,of course, intensely on 9-11, (back-flashes in such an instance are said to be normal, unless they linger...they did not.), and I felt a serious empathy to do something - anything - to give of myself, to help. Though it was not me for whom the bell tolled, this time, prayer, writing, and doing my own day well helped in many ways. I sing the patriotic songs - a beautiful noise!

.It DOES get better...hang in!

IT DOES GET BETTER ...HANG IN!

COUNSELING WORKS...GET SOME GOOD COUNSELING..
.Fact:"Crazies" are normal, short-term, in such shocking circumstances....get help...most of it phases out fairly quickly...In sudden death loss of a loved one....hallucinations and misconceptions are normal...the consciousness adjusts to reality instantly, but the deeper levels of the psyche need a little time. BUT IT DOES GET BETTER....ALLOW IT TO GET BETTER!

IT GETS BETTER...TAKING GOOD CARE OF YOURSELF WILL HELP IT TO GET BETTER! Maintain good general health or take the opportunity to improve your own general health... the days will be demanding, but will go much better if your own health is optimized.

IT GETS BETTER....WATCH FOR CRUTCHES THAT CAN TRIP YOU INSTEAD OF SUPPORT YOU... Watch the medications...many are very good, but some can make it even worse... and then you have two problems, instead of one...so be sure to have a wise friend or good counsellor....someone who can observe and be objective, since you may not be able to do so... and the wrong medication can destroy your judgement, at least temporarily... and you might be the last to be able to realize it...

IT GETS BETTER...
.DO NOT HESITATE TO DISCARD SOMETHING YOU CHOSE TO HELP THAT DOES NOT HELP IT TO GET BETTER! Do not be afraid to change.. medications, doctors, friends, neigbors...but do so intelligently. "Aunti Mame" was not just a movie...she "fugued" when bereaved, until..........and her pattern is not unusual. But her story had a lot of charming comedy in it, and most don't. You may find that some changes must be made, depending on the sociological effect of the bereavement ...and can make all the difference to you.

OLD LOVE EVOLVES INTO NEW ......Without getting unhealthy about it, do not lose the taste, the feeling, the effect, the warmth, the inspiration, the passion, the compassion, the intellect, the drive, the delight of the love you shared with your loved one...if you give it half a chance...do not get morbid or live in the past, but you may find it comforting and healing to experience how REAL the good life and love from the past remains, to help you cope with life without that person ...

and it will lead you safely into new loves when you are ready.

DEATH IS THE BAD GUY...
YOU ARE THE GOODGUYS!...
You would not think we need to remind ourselves, but I guess we do!
AMERICANS DON'T LET THE BAD GUYS WIN!
AMERICA HAS BEEN INJURED AS A NATION IN THIS...
WE WILL HAVE WHAT WE NEED AS A NATION TO GET BETTER, TOO!
LOVE IS THE GOLD...includes love of country, too!

THE EXPLOSIONS AND FIRES of "September 11, 2001" GAVE A DRAMATIC SHOW OF DESTRUCTIVE ENERGY FOR A SHORT TIME, BUT THE LIFE ENERGY YOU CREATED WITH YOUR LOVED ONES IS NEVERENDING. IT WILL FEED YOU IN ALL THE RIGHT WAYS, IF YOU ALLOW IT TO DO SO... CELEBRATE THIS !
IT DOES GET BETTER! LET ALL THE GOOD THINGS YOU CREATED WITH YOUR LOST LOVED ONE FEED YOU FOR ALL THE RIGHT STUFF TO ALLOW IT TO GET BETTER! DEATH LOSES TO LIFE AND LOVE, GIVEN HALF A CHANCE!

THE HUMAN SPIRIT IS SUPERHUMAN WHEN MEASURED BY EVERYDAY SLIDERULES...ESPECIALLY IN CRISIS. YOUR HORRIBLE SITUATION IS FULL OF "LEFT-HANDED BLESSINGS. TRY TO APPRECIATE A FEW OF THEM, >ONLY GOD IS INFINITE, AND, AT THE VERY LEAST, WE BECOME EXHAUSTED AFTER A WHILE. ..rest and try again...IT GETS BETTER...CELBRATE THE HEALING...NOTICE IT... APPRECIATE IT AS YOU COME BACK TO LIFE YOURSELF FROM THIS WORST OF ALL HUMAN EXPERIENCE....HUG FREQUENTLY. IT WORKS. AND LAUGHTER IS STILL THE BEST MEDICINE.

ONCE YOU ARE BETTER, IT STILL TAKES TIME TO FEEL CONFIDENT ABOUT IT, ESPECIALLY SINCE EVERYDAY LIFE FOR MOST OF US MEANS COPING WITH the everyday RANGE OF GRIEVINGS OVER INDIVIDUAL CHRONIC WOES...but it is not that difficult to tell the difference. The griefcounselling classicist _________, is right....there is day when the lightbulb definitely clicks on again, the sun rises on a new morning! I was astounded when my new dawn came...felt very silly at the sudden elation! 9.If you have good about your grief work chores, you may give yourself a sneaky treat... FIND THE KID ON THE BLOCK WHO HAS EVERYTHING AND IS STILL ALWAYS COMPLAINING, AND SOCK IT TO 'EM...YOU'LL GET AWAY WITH IT.

"NO" TO ALL FUNDRAISERS FOR A YEAR. is not always correct, but consider it. The logic behind fundraising so soon after loss of loved one are sickening, and the moves still pretty bad.

PLEASE, PRESIDENT BUSH, MAKE THIS A LAW...NOT PROBATE, WHICH OFTEN DOES MORE HARM THAN GOOD, BUT JUST A LAW THAT SIMPLY STATES, "STAY OFF THEIR MONEY, TILL THEY'VE GOT IT STRAIGHT!"

WHEN YOU ARE READY, DO NOT BE AFRAID TO 'GET OUT OF YOURSELF" AND HELP OTHERS... .The popular technique of "getting out of yourself" and helping others still works well...long after all the socially- structured things were done, there was still a large helping of sorrow to be dealt with, and in my case, there would be delays beyond my control, before it was better. But once the worst of it was dealt with, it truly helped to get out and help others. Self-pity is unbearable..

IT GETS BETTER AND NOW YOU ARE ACTING TO MAKE IT BETTER FOR YOU AND OTHERS!

Monday morning, September 17, 2001:

ERRORS ~ ALL OUR OWN FAULT ...IT DID NOT NEED TO HAPPEN...

Some fellows showed up at flight school in terrorist suits, with terrorist names...and we enrolled them in the class and taught them to fly the planes they used to kill our own. In ODS, we sold the killing chemicals to our enemy, labelled ,"for industrial use"...they certainly got industrious with it, costing the lives of our soldiers and pilots, and teaching us a bitter lesson....can we please use this lesson well?

Errors in Security, accountability, and Preparedness are already in the headlines, less than one week after...Our farmers would call it a clear case of "...closing the barn door after the horses have gotten out and run away !"

This is the most difficult part of any disaster ! The inescapable, sickening certainty that it did not need to happen ! And still, unless we bear up through this part of it, we cannot hope to do better, and there will surely be a next time.

It is helping to alternate with reminders of the great deal that was done correctly. It is helping to appreciate the amazing resourcefulness of our humanity in response, then unwaveringly steer this power of humanity into corrective paths.

The incredible numbers of lives lost, though, in so short a time, with no hope of escape, is overwhelming!

I wrote Remedy: Escapefrom a long-lost memory that now feels like a mission. See if you agree.

Tuesday morning, September 18, 2001:

REMEDIES: NINE ELEVEN NEED NEVER HAPPEN AGAIN

Our President has announced the establishment of theUnited States Department of Homeland Security, for Preparedness against subsequent attacks.

We have been asked to become Preparedness-Aware, and keep emergency packs, contact and action plans at the ready. We are doing it.

Our Military is, at this moment, organizing to seek and capture all involved in the attacks.

Exhaustive information gathering concerning Intelligence and Security are in progress.

Millions have been spent to meet the needs of those impacted by nineleven.

At this writing, most of the Ground Zero area is functioning again, and the massive cleanup and reverent care of human remains is at least helped by DNA modernity.

A fine beginning, but one whose validity depends on great follow-through.

I shared my escape tech idea, and am encouraged, if limited. More later. And may whatever Forces we honor as the Life Source be with us all. Nineleven...neveragain!

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They Worked the Pile

Update from Nineleven Commission ~ per The New York Times June 18, 2004